i think ima get a new xanga ovr the spirng break, i hate the name lily2cute4u. dont know what to call it though. any suggestions? :]

sooo oh yuea i just realized Dan our instructor for my hiking group at yosemite who SOO looks like Jason lee from My name is EArl, gratuated with adam brody. dan and adam dated the same girl! yay, that brings me closer to adam...

so today, was boring,

Core period 1 and 2: we listened to the radio adn stuff, took a reading test, YAY mrs dakoning?err wutever is gone!! YAY

math: man, got a 75% on my math chap. test... sigh oh well.

pe:  we had mile club (which gotta run atleast 3 laps, one equals half a mile in 20 min.) had to run in the rain and mud... and i swear to god, there were like big blogs of mud running down my leg, cause ppl running before kicked their legs in teh mud and aon ur legs.. and we had to walk a lot cause we could slippppp

oh yea at lunch. i saw all these people staring at me, then i realize they were staring at my legs and butt, i was like "what? is my butt that big?" then someone told me i got a big neon purple stain on my butt.. OMG it wasooooo hugeand it was all ovr my paints, i had no idea where it came from, i never sit on purple things... i had to tie my sweater around my waist to block it. which didnt.

cooking: our group made stuffed mushrooms, its okay, better than i thought it would be.

science: we watched a video of STDs spreading and gay couples..richard gere was in there.  i slept most through it...like literally, not just a saying where you day dream, sleeping, almost drooling adn snoring, okay not really but yea.  

im bored. YAY SPRING BREAK!!!!

UGGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

we were at costco, i bought two cds.. and i wanted to buy some chicken bake so i went to get it,, and my dad put the stuff in the car. and when we came back home, when found out he left hte cds in hte cart. nad now he's blaming on me. he's saying im side trackinga nd shouldve helped him carry stuff to the car.

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WTFFF. i mean i didnt even get mad at him for leaving it. GGGAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

and he keeps blaming it on me that i take too much classes, i do too much stuff. and that im stupid. he's saying i should quit al lmy class cause i not worth the money. i hate him. he put a can of v8 in front of my face nad told me to drink it, i told him im not thirsty, he starts yelling and throwwing nad smashing and V8 on hte fflloor with teh juice runningand spitting out. so many situtations like that.

i want my mom back. i cant take it anymore. if it gets bad enough, im planning to run away from home.

on friday, at school there was this fight between these girls who are sorta my friends calling each other hoar and cussing in hte middle of the quad.. and at cooking before class started. one of hte girls yelled,"I hope you fucking die!" really loud across the room to natasha, another one,  who aids the cooking teacher. LOLLL . i know im mean but that was sorta funny;.. cuz mrs. zehnder thought it was to her. and she found out who.. LOL... i hate mrs zehnderr...

i feeel soo madd..

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Currently Listening A Fever You Can't Sweat Out By Panic! At the Disco see related

i just realized that this pic i put in my pf for xanga... ew i look emo, lol. well i cant take new pics.. cuz AHEM someone broke my cam and memory card. GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR

sorry anyways

im really behind in school work... right now...

oh well watchin american idol right now... HATE BUCKY.. oh yea, i heard lisa got out or something last week.. i wasnt there to watch it cuz at yosemite... but anyways. YES! i didnt like her...

most classes changed seating arrangements...

core... i like my new seat now... in the back, wth nice cool people... i love it.

math not changing.

pe. not changing... its just warm ups anyways

cooking. ill miss my groupppp... wth patricia, kota, andrew, nad raymond... but im still wth kota but my new groups just really really boringgg.. and i got michelle.. she's okay i guess... she doesnt talk a lot. and antoehr dude iono... adn kathleen, but im guessing she hates me..

science.. changed it eysterday, i like it. much bettter with out shweta.. and other ppl ...so yesterday and today, we kept talking and learning about sex... he made us ask questions about it.. you had to...i know , really uncomfortable, talking about how you can get STDs or AIDs and should use condoms, doing it before married blah blah blah... in the tape yesterday this 9 year old boy was like "well you know sure, i think its okay if you're in 11th grade and you know this girl really well for about 2 years. if she said she didnt have any disease or anything,  yeah, sure why not?  just do it, i mean c'mon. life is short. heck ill do it in the eighth grade" lmao. and there were like 5 year olds interviewed... and stuff... today mr. po caught someone talking and was like "if youre not talking about sex, you shouldnt be talking at all". LOL. really strnage... a lot more about sex.. wonder if we're gonna be quizzed on the stuff..

back from yosemite..

im bak from yosemite... sigh....

never in a week so much has happened to me...

i wanna write about everyday... but maybe not today

a lot of good and badt hings...

good: saw snow for the first time, experiences wth nature, learning stuff...

bad: got barfed on, digital camera broken by the same person who barfed on me, rumors about me hanging out wth brianna and that im weird, finding out that mommy's leaving to taiwan today cause my grandma passed away

the news of her came so fast to me when i just got back, she died at 3 yesterday afternoon, so ill be stuck with my dad for a few weeks,

*sigh... i can't believe it... so many thingsssssss... there's more but i forgot..

ill write about my trip later or something, certainly a trip i wont forget.

im feel really baddd... i becoming a huge klutz now... im patheticc.

so recently i've chosen my electives two weeks ago

1. drama

2. art

3. oral composition

alternatives: chinese AP

                     beg. choir

those are really lame classes i chose... i should've chosen a language or two, which worries me at high school adn college. cuz i heard from a friend & a teacher that you gotta atleast know two languages to go to a real good college... i guess chinese doesnt count since im *gasp* chinese.

im soo scared of high school. life just passes so quick, i've made so many remarks on how ill do so many things in high school, nad jokes too... didn't know i would get there so quick... im sure all teh 8th graders feel this way, so many people are choosing their grad dress already... graduation is almost here june 16th.. from what i know i HAVE to go to the grad dance, havent gone to a freakin one yet,

my grades aren't going to well but okay i guess

im hoping to get all As. notice not straight a's just all As... cuz its impossible to get striahgt A's for me. in pe i suck. but oh oh, yesterday we ran the mile, and a friend natasha said chewing gum while running helps...im like  u serious? she's like yea... so she gave me a gum and i ran the mile while chewing gum and it was really weird... i hardly chewed... i was too tired to chew so its like in my mouth tucked in my cheek... i almost chocked on it in the last lap. lol. but i improved thirty sec. oh rubberduckies! iwasnt even tired. okay i was, i nearly collapsed on the floor but wasn't that tired as usual.

 my cooking teacher zehnder defenitely hates me. ughh i hate her too like everybody else. already, our group got really mad how she's making us learn about protein and vitamins adn testing us on it and she keeps forgettin to give us hte recipes, and so today she told people to be quiet to say something saying... "people aren't taking the right amount of ingredients.." er sumthin like that... i freaked out and said really loud "well we didn't even get our recipes!".. MYBADDDDD stupid meeee..i can't even believe that came out of my mouth...i didn't mean to say it for her to hear....this other girl said it with me too but not that loud... I DIDNT MEAN ITT.. i jsut happen to have a loud voice..there was a moment of silence tehn she looked really pissed and sed "okay, you will get your recipes later" pointing at me...:[ ahhhhhh... prolly cuz of that i flunked cooking....but ten min. later we still didnt get the recipe.... finally she gave our group it...then to make up for it, i said "tahnk you! thank you! thank you!" i hope it worked, im sooo ashamedd...

YESS kevin got out. my worst choices were all in teh bottom three... kevin, bucky, and lisa... next will be pickler.... but this year there's hella a lot of good people but im thinking the winner is katherine mcphee... she's REALLY good but not my fav

im gonna be gone to yosemite nex week...leaving this sunday 9 am and back at fri. 9-10 pm.... i really don't wanna go, i hate my cabin group, though their supposedly my "friends". anways they won't read this, they don have my xanga...

im really annoying lately, i know, okay fine i don't know. nobody ever said i was annoyin but i feel like i am. im like a curse, i've been tripping over backpacks... being hated by teachers, embarrassing myself............... that makes me feel im glad graduation's almost here, but im not.. AHHHHH stop confusing urself....

im planning to write more in my xanga now... well... atleast try